About Me

I am in love with you.

It doesn’t matter who you are. I may not know your name or where you come from. I can’t touch you, I can’t kiss you, and I can’t fuck you if I’m not in love. How could I do it all without feelings? How boring would that be? Half of the thrill and excitement lies in the fact that I look into your eyes and I melt inside, the simple touch of your hand gives me goosebumps.

That doesn’t mean anything, you know. Or it means everything, but not in the way you might perceive. I don’t have any expectations. I most definitely would not like to be with you, live with you, marry you or have your children. I’m just in love with you, maybe only for this moment, maybe for a few days or months, maybe forever -you might be that good.

I don’t want anything from you in return. I don’t even expect you to have any feelings for me, although I believe that you do. You wouldn’t be able to wake all my desires, to make me tremble in fear and anticipation under your gaze, without opening to me your heart and your mind. A good sexual relationship can never be purely physical. We just describe them like this because we are too afraid to admit anything deeper.

Well I am free. I am not possessed and I am not possessive. A true anarchist, if you like, in this matter. And because I am free, feelings, for me, do not come with chains. I can tell you that I love you, that I need you and want you so badly that my body aches from desire when you’re near. That my stomach curls up and hurts. My breath gets shallow, and my heart skips a bit the moment I see you.

I’m in love with you, which is why I want to seduce you, why I want to have you inside me as closely connected as two people can be, or three, or ten, or five hundred. To share this pleasure of the body and the mind in all its intensity.

If I was a character from a song, I would be Leonard Cohen’s ‘Suzanne’; or the whore from Edith Piaf’s ‘C’est à Hambourg’,

Make me fall for you, even a little bit, I’ve never had sex with anyone without being in love…

 

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Are all the stories and characters in this blog a product of fiction?

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